Back At One

hey world, its another cell phone blog because my idiot self forgot to pick up my computer while i was at school all day...anyway i wanted to take a moment to just chat with you guys. can you belive its almost the end of the year? this year went by way too fast its ridiculous. its already december, that means trees are going up, present are being wrapped, and wishlist items are being crossed off. it really is the most wonderful time of the year. christmas is soon upon us and with that brings the new year. twelve months we have spent in this current year and soon we will be back at one. with a new year comes new challenges, new experiences, new joy, new pain, new love, new sadness, new friends, new enemies, new ups, new downs, new....ok i think you get the point. ive never been one for new years resolutions because ive never really set goals that didnt have to do with behavior or internal actions and attitudes. for instance, every year i say im going to read my bible more, pray more, be more active with my family, all stuff i can do in my head or by myself and not really put too great an effort into it. but... this year is going to be different. i want to spice it up a bit..im taking the extra jump this year and trying to set realistic n some unrealistic goals...im not sure what some of them are yet but ive got a little bit of time to figure it out. my biggest goal this year is to put my heart into everything i do...now now i hear you scoffers out there..vic thats easy to do isnt that just another thing you do in your head..its a kinda lame goal...to you i say...phooey one of the biggest problems that i have with myself.  i internalize contentment when i should be dissatisfied with a failure. in plain english i look at my failures and say, oh well i tried, im happy with that...nooooooooo you failed you idiot why are you happy when if you would have tried harder you would have succeeded and in grand fashion. i refuse to let....lets call it laziness and complacency...get in the way of my success. i know it may sound strange, but  there is nothing more frustrating to me than knowing you could have done better. idk world call me a perfectionist..and i would laugh in your face. but im tired of being content with the mediocre things in my life...im going for the gold. no more silver or bronze just because i dont want to put in the work. its go time baby...so here is my challenge to you world, this next coming year, when we find ourselves back at one how will you change it? how will you define the new year? will it be trophied with victories or littered with failures? only time will tell...but ill give you one assuring note ill be back at one right with you..ok now im going to listen to brian mcknight cuz its killing me to keep saying back at one...              tootles world, yeah i just said tootles,                         vic